I apologize if this post seems disjointed. I didn’t take notes while going through this, but I now feel it’s important to share my journey with everyone. Let me begin by explaining the events that led me to undergo this procedure, and how my life has evolved over the past year.

In 2010 & 2014, I received abnormal pap smear results. The colposcopies I had to undergo were excruciating, despite the doctors’ reassurance that it would only be a slight discomfort. I vividly recall having to visit a free clinic for the second procedure due to not having insurance. The experience was so harrowing that I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. The number of biopsies taken during the procedure almost caused me to faint.

I experienced postcoital bleeding for the first time in 2015. Although I did not experience any pain, I assumed it was due to a position that my body did not like. With encouragement from my husband, I decided to visit a gynecologist to get it checked out. The tests revealed that I had bacterial vaginosis, which the doctor explained is a common occurrence in individuals who test positive for HPV.

In 2016, I had to undergo another colposcopy due to severe dysplasia of the glands, which indicated the presence of precancerous cells. Following a discussion with my doctor, we agreed to proceed with a conization procedure. The prospect of developing cervical cancer weighed heavily on me, along with the dilemma of whether to have children in the future. While conization does not hinder conception, the risk of miscarriage is significantly higher. Although we were inclined towards not having more children, the pressure of making such a decision at the age of 30 was daunting.

The process of healing after the conization procedure was less challenging than I had expected. I experienced some abdominal discomfort and slight bleeding during the initial days. However, I quickly recovered and went back to my usual routine. I was able to engage in sexual activity again six weeks after the operation.

In the years that followed, I experienced a great deal of nervousness every time my annual pap test was due. I feared receiving news that the abnormal cells had resurfaced. Although I did receive a few abnormal results, I was fortunate that I only required more frequent pap tests. Amidst the pandemic, I began to observe irregularities with my menstrual cycle. There were occasions when I experienced month-long bleeding or went without bleeding for two consecutive months. Additionally, I started to have unusually heavy periods, to the extent that I would bleed onto my bedding at night and have to leave work. 

I revisited my gynecologist for some blood work, and although my iron levels were low, everything else was deemed normal. The doctor mentioned that my symptoms were most likely due to hormonal fluctuations and would likely resolve on their own. Despite this, I experienced ongoing problems for almost a year before deciding to consult the doctor again. During our conversation, various options were considered, such as an IUD, birth control, D&C, or hysterectomy.

For nearly 5 years, I had been experiencing recurring issues and I was fed up. I informed my doctor that I was prepared for a hysterectomy. While I have a strong bond with my doctor, I was frustrated by the medical system’s attempts to dictate women’s choices about their own bodies. My doctor insisted on exploring other options and discussing it with my partner multiple times. I recognize the importance of ensuring that I am certain about such a permanent decision. However, at that point, the thought of not having more children did not sadden me anymore. I just wanted to put an end to all the problems associated with my reproductive system.

In preparation for the procedure, I purchased some nightgowns for comfort and to prevent the need for pants. I also invested in a body pillow to prevent excessive rolling during sleep. To support my recovery, my husband brought a recliner into our living room where I spent most of my time. Additionally, I enlisted the help of a personal trainer three months before the procedure to improve the condition of my core muscles. 

In March 2024, I was scheduled to have a complete hysterectomy and retain only my ovaries to avoid early menopause. At first, I only informed our parents about the surgery because I considered it a private choice. I was fortunate to have a wonderful medical team looking after me on the day of the operation. After undergoing a 5-hour surgery followed by a few hours in postoperative care, I was discharged to return home. 

I was appreciative of the flexibility shown by my employer in adjusting my schedule after the procedure. I had to work remotely for the first couple of weeks due to uncertainty about the effects of my medications. The surgery took place on a Friday, and I began working from home the next Tuesday.

The most challenging aspect of my healing process was the initial week after the surgery. Although the procedure itself was not too painful since it was done laparoscopically, I suffered discomfort due to the gas used to inflate my abdomen. Dealing with a bloated stomach and struggling to release the gas was quite unbearable.

During the initial week, my husband worked from home to provide me with support as I required a lot of help. I was unable to sit or get up from a chair independently, use the restroom without assistance, shower alone, or even put on my socks by myself. It was recommended that I stand up and walk every hour, so I roamed around our 1,800 square foot house multiple times daily.

I was prepared to return to work after three weeks, with a weight restriction of 10 pounds. Initially, I experienced some discomfort wearing jeans, but eventually, I was able to handle it. Fortunately, my coworkers were supportive and made sure I didn’t push myself too hard until I was cleared to resume my regular job duties.

After 8 weeks of recovery, I was given the green light to resume my usual routine. I needed to gradually ease back into exercising, especially after being inactive for weeks due to surgery. It was a relief for both my husband and me to finally be able to enjoy a normal sex life and for me to regain independence in using the bathroom.

I am happy that I underwent the hysterectomy. It gives me peace of mind knowing that I no longer have to worry about potential health issues or the return of precancerous cells. Not having to deal with menstruation or worry about birth control has given me a sense of liberation. The only negative aspect, in my opinion, is the visible scars on my stomach. I have three scars from the surgery, but I was assured they would fade over time. Unfortunately, I developed keloids during the healing process. My dermatologist advised breaking up the scar tissue to help reduce their appearance, which is quite painful. For now, I am managing with the scars and considering using silicone scar bandages as a possible solution.

I hope this post has provided some insight or guidance to anyone facing similar challenges or contemplating the option of a hysterectomy. Making the decision to undergo such a procedure is significant and requires thoughtful consideration. It’s crucial to assert your autonomy in such matters and not feel pressured by external influences. Feel free to get in touch if you have any other questions or wish to share any thoughts about my own experience with the procedure.