I’ve known for quite awhile that something was off with me. At first I thought it was a lack of self-control. (To be honest, this is an issue occasionally, but not in this instance.) For a little over a year, my weight has been steadily rising. I am now at the weight I was right before giving birth. I’ve been working with my therapist to love myself regardless of my weight or appearance in general. It continues to be a struggle, but I am dedicated to learning to love myself more.
I really began to wonder about my issues with sugar when I was eating more M&Ms and ice cream than real food.
I tried to go cold turkey for awhile, but when a stressor arose, I went right back to the sweet stuff. Though the verdict is out on whether sugar addiction is a real thing or not, I believe I am addicted to sugar.
The biggest aha moment was when I would crave certain items when I wasn’t hungry. I was seeking the feeling, the taste, and the overall experience when I ate sugary foods. I would often eat myself sick, hide my “habit” from family and friends, and tell myself, “I’ll do better tomorrow.” But I never did- each day was the same, trying to convince myself I could start over on Monday.
I’ve been struggling with hair thinning, cavities, headaches, bloating, sleep issues, and much more. I’m tired of feeling like crap. I’m tired of being a secretive eater. I’m tired of all the money I’m spending on food that is making me sick. It’s time for a change. I’ve made a plan to incorporate healthy habits into my life slowly. The plan isn’t just about reducing or eliminating sugar from my diet, but improving myself in general. My next post, I’ll discuss my timeline for introducing healthier habits into my life.
Stay tuned,
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